I strive to be a good person and I happen to be a woman. Thus “Good Woman” is what I aspire to be and that became the name of my blog. But what makes a person good? To answer that, I quote from a poster that once hung in my daughter’s room: “I want to be the kind of person my dog thinks I am.”
Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, I thought that when I grew up I would be in control of my life. How naive I was! At age 60 plus, I now realize that I will never be in charge. I certainly made decisions that influenced what happened to me, but life itself took control. I know now that is OK. I am approaching retirement and I am trying to figure out to the extent that is up to me, what will be next, how I will spend my time and my resources, what will give my life meaning, how I hope to live my life to continue becoming the good person I strive to be. I will explore where I am, how I got here, what I will continue doing, what I prefer to cut out of my life, what new things I want to try, what is important to me. Meanwhile I hope that I have learned the skills that will help me to deal with the unexpected. This blog is intended to cover my journey. There won’t be a specific structure. I have had enough of that in my career. The topics will be wide and varied. They might seem random and eclectic. I will write what I want to write about. Nothing will be off-limits.
In so many ways I feel like I am a teenager again as I try to figure out what life is all about. I hope I have a lot more wisdom and a lot less angst. I know I have a lot more freedom. I earned that. Perhaps what I long for the most is freedom to stay in pajamas all day if I want to and to be a little quirky and even eccentric. That seems to be a privilege reserved for older people and I might try that on for a while.
I will admit that I am a little scared about retirement. So much of my identity comes from my job and when I no longer have that will I be psychologically ok? I should be–I spent 20 years being a wife and when I became a widow, as time passed, I dealt with that. I spent 25 plus years being a mom and although I am still a mom, the child is now an adult and thankfully does not need me in the same way. Will I have a new specific title or role, or will I be the quintessential good woman? This blog will help me figure out what I want to do next. And who knows, if this goes well, maybe blogging will be a major focus of the rest of my life.
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